i lost myself..

haix.. finally my three days part time jobs over.. three days standing doing nothing but kept chit chat-ing were kinda of boring but i really felt guilty.. sorry for not selling anything, but take my advice, have some survey b4 u decided to have a promotion...><

christmas had passed and my dream never come true.. and now only left five days to the 31, its the end of 2010..

what have i done so far? i doubt i have any answer for it... ah, i gained quite a lot of experiences..

i found that i really duno how to communicate with others.. i always feel the awkwardness when i talk to someone that i dun really know or get along well with others..

i think i am too ego and a bit of shy...

sometimes, i really do hate myself.... is it normall? i duno.. everyone said the aquarius is special and clever, y cant i feel that too...?? i really hope that someone can change me b4 i lost myself..

i just hope that i can change 50% of my weakness in the cuming 2011.. and my wishes can come true.. i pray...