Ignore

Today I got angry over trivial again. I know I shouldn’t have angry but I still not manage to control my temper very well. I tried to be cool and calm but it was hard to ignore. I got all the blame for reading too much every time. Ironically they threw the sympathetic looks at me when I got the result. Actually I just want to be a happy me, I don’t want to compete with anyone of you. All this long, I just wish that I could find myself and paint my desire life. So please stop pretending and be yourself too. You might get lost after camouflaging yourself too much. Don’t be that kia-su. Intrinsic motivation is what learning process needed. Copy cat doesn’t make any contribution to mankind.
Goals:
1) Ignore those gibberish.
2) Be a high EQ biotic.
3) Find myself and outdo myself.

i lost myself..

haix.. finally my three days part time jobs over.. three days standing doing nothing but kept chit chat-ing were kinda of boring but i really felt guilty.. sorry for not selling anything, but take my advice, have some survey b4 u decided to have a promotion...><

christmas had passed and my dream never come true.. and now only left five days to the 31, its the end of 2010..

what have i done so far? i doubt i have any answer for it... ah, i gained quite a lot of experiences..

i found that i really duno how to communicate with others.. i always feel the awkwardness when i talk to someone that i dun really know or get along well with others..

i think i am too ego and a bit of shy...

sometimes, i really do hate myself.... is it normall? i duno.. everyone said the aquarius is special and clever, y cant i feel that too...?? i really hope that someone can change me b4 i lost myself..

i just hope that i can change 50% of my weakness in the cuming 2011.. and my wishes can come true.. i pray...

唯独空虚的我，遗漏了

翻阅过以往的日记，感觉以往的我好不成熟。。也许，我真的长大了。一天天的。。慢慢的。。

把我的记忆都散除了，不是他们不重要，而是该记的，都已刻在脑海里的，不在的，也许只是无聊的胡闹。。不值得占据我的人生。。。

是时候，该改变了。。旧的不去，新的不来。。

我的人生，什么都需要改变。。。

以往大家说我交际好，不知是不是越大越孤僻，总察觉我不易于别人相处。。 该改了。。。不想再以“英雄总是孤独”的谎言欺骗自己。。。

疑心该撇了。。不知从何时开始，围城竟围得比赤壁还高，比深宫还隐秘。。。有时会觉得活着是种痛苦。。有了心事，又不知该对谁说。。。

没有信任的人生，是人生吗？

该改了，没什么值得留下的。。只会让身边的人渐渐地疏远。。。

叶，凋零了，树，枯萎了；唯独空虚的我，遗漏了。。

遗失的，是美好的。。蓦然回首，原来最痛的是后悔。。。